wrestler

so i havent been here in a bit, so things are up and down right now in my life, i have been pretty lonely lately and things are moving too fast for me to grip on, i just need to break for once in life.


i watched the wrestler tonight and there was a part where he and his daughter had it out, she gave him a lot of chances but he screwed up and she told him to never come around, its funny cuz in a way that is the way i am with my dad, i havent seen him in 7ish years and i really dont know what would happen if i did see him again, he is just worthless to me now. where was he when i needed a father.....


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ok so i havent really updated this in a while so here i am, brandon and candis are getting married in vegas on may 15 2009, that should be fun,most of our friends will be there so its gonna be a great time! work is getting better everyday, well for the most part, connie one of my work friends and the person whom i am with all day everday has gone for materity leave, i am hella bummed cuz i really dont talk to anyone else at work. ummm oh with the gym thing, i have been going everyday for a month and i have yet lost any weight but i have gotten alot more toned which is fuckin awesome!

the other night i had a dream that my brother came in to my room and asked me what my deal has been for awhile, and all i said is its cuz im lonely...

that was a weird and yet truthful dream...yes i am lonely but its not how it seems.