gifted

i think i have a gift for failing, my birthday was june 3 and i turned 27, just seems like everything i have done since then has failed. im just tired and i need to run away, i think i am getting depressed again and it seems the only thing that pulls me out is my fear of trying to kill myself again, i cant...no i wont go back to being that way, living that life was unproductive and stupid. i know i can thank some of my friends that helped me out of the slump, but now they are all married. stupid!

ugh.