wrestler

so i havent been here in a bit, so things are up and down right now in my life, i have been pretty lonely lately and things are moving too fast for me to grip on, i just need to break for once in life.


i watched the wrestler tonight and there was a part where he and his daughter had it out, she gave him a lot of chances but he screwed up and she told him to never come around, its funny cuz in a way that is the way i am with my dad, i havent seen him in 7ish years and i really dont know what would happen if i did see him again, he is just worthless to me now. where was he when i needed a father.....


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ok so i havent really updated this in a while so here i am, brandon and candis are getting married in vegas on may 15 2009, that should be fun,most of our friends will be there so its gonna be a great time! work is getting better everyday, well for the most part, connie one of my work friends and the person whom i am with all day everday has gone for materity leave, i am hella bummed cuz i really dont talk to anyone else at work. ummm oh with the gym thing, i have been going everyday for a month and i have yet lost any weight but i have gotten alot more toned which is fuckin awesome!

the other night i had a dream that my brother came in to my room and asked me what my deal has been for awhile, and all i said is its cuz im lonely...

that was a weird and yet truthful dream...yes i am lonely but its not how it seems.

hmm

ok so i did it! i joined golds gym tonight, ryan and brandon kicked my ass real good and they are going to contunie to do so until i am back at 150ish, it feels good but the 533 was hard to give up, i was saving that money for a trip but i needed this and now that i did it, it feels good, i had a great workout and plan on doing so either eveyday after work or everyother day. so my step is in front of me and i and see it! now i just have to find the will power to go foward.


last night i had dinner with my uncle and aunt and we ate pretty well as usual, they are great cooks, but we also had a great conversation about my life, seeing on how i dont have anyone else to really talk too, they listen to me and offer advice which is really helpful for me.

steps

ok so its time, time to start my next journey, figure out what is the next step in life, a few weeks ago i started to eat meat again, one morning i woke up and called cale, i asked him if he wanted to do breakfast with me so we went to sills cafe and i ordered steak and eggs, it was crazy to have that in my mouth after 9 years, i mean i have been craving it for so long that i forgot how it tastes, so now i have meat almost everyday at work.

so about this stepping stone...i was talking to my uncle today and he was telling me that i need to try new things, so one thing that has been in the back of my head is the gym and my teeth, i am going to research gyms and join one, its just time to get back in shape, and my teeth....well its just fuckin time! found out that my dental insurance will cover 1500 so i will make the appointment to get it started.

birth

cash jackson stump was born today 2.28.2009 he weighed 6.11 lbs and was 20 1/2 inches long, he has blonde/redish hair and is adorable, here is a picture of brandon and cash together that i took.


my little brother is growing up...

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i think marriage can be a beautiful thing but it seems that alot of people around me are getting divoriced, i have never been married and i see these people that hate the idea of marriage, it hurts the chances for us that have never been.

random

so i sit here and i am watching mad money and it looks like we might be getting 500.00 for single or 1,000.00 for couples......yeah more money we have to pay taxes on, i am feeling a little bummed right now, i got 2 free tickets in the suites at the delta center for monster truck madness, i thought it was going to be Saturday but no...its Friday, i asked a girl that i am liking right now but she cant go...but again i don't think she is really that into me. Being in the the grocery biz kinda sucks right now, i am super bored of it, i belive i may and try to go to the office again.


i think i have the worst grammar ha ha i cant remember where to end a sentence, how to leave a comma or whatever. i need to take a grammar class or something.


why does all my friends have to be married, i think out of all my friends that are married, lance and Lindy have the best marriage and i like her the best anyway, she lets lance do stuff with me and she doesn't freak out. i feel like like i ramble on and on sometimes but it help get things out, its funny cuz i will write so much but wont keep 3/4 of the stuff i write cuz i am afraid of letting people know how i really feel or think, dint get my wrong i am not crazy but i guess i don't want people to think different of me. OK I'm done rambling.